I’ll miss everyone but I have to do this. I love you all
I am growing up, 1 week ago I turned 16 and I realised that I can’t go on like this forever. I am trying to recover. I have plans for the future and I trully want to be happy. Everyone has people who care about them and so do I; it doesn’t really matter if they are 5 or 10 or 15 or the whole world.Everyone has something to live for, everyone wants to become something so instead of running a blog with this kind of content ( self harm, ED etc ) you should be out there doing your best in order to be the best you can be, all you gotta do is try.
SH negatively affects those people who want to be around me and the last thing I want to do is push them away because I need them, especially my boyfriend. He brought me back from the dead without even trying because everytime I saw him I felt alive. He brought happiness in my life, we make plans for the future together and I don’t want to ruin it cause we both love each other. I have motivation to go on with my life and I am gaining strength.
So the point is that in a few hours this blog is going to be deleted because it does no good to me and it does not help me at all. It’s a constant reminder of how worthless/fat/ugly/stupid I am and all I want to do is move on with my life, try to be as happy as possible.
Deleting my blog does not mean that I’ll not be around tumblr anymore cause I want to help all those amazing people I met here. ( I also met a really good friend of mine here ). You can always reach out for help by sending me a message on my other blog (destroyed-dolls) I promise I’ll be there for you, I love you all and I know that every single one of you is strong enough to get through all these years. We are still very young at things change; I can guarantee that.